Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Happy Holidays!
I've gone to a few Christmas shows this year, which have all been entertaining, but this past weekend, on Saturday the 18th, I went to the Los Angeles Gay Men's Chorus's show, Comfort and Joy. It was truly an amazing show. In particular God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen was breathtaking. They are all beautiful talented men. During the show the chorus's Executive Director came out and spoke about it being a historic day as DADT had been repealed. The shouts and applause heard in that theater Saturday were very satisfying.
If you are ever in Los Angeles during one of their three performances a year, you won't be sorry if you attend one.
And so...this is going to be my last entry of 2010. I'll likely appear to wish everyone a Happy 2011, but otherwise, I will be back posting on January 3, 2011.
I wish everyone a wonder filled and safe Christmas and new year. May you read some amazing books in the days left before January.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Shawn
Monday, December 20, 2010
Viva Las Christmas (Kevin's Family Christmas)
“Stop fidgeting.”
Kevin Bennett immediately stopped playing with the window on his economy car. They’d chosen to leave the Maserati at home, though Michael had insisted on driving, which was more than fine with him. He crossed his arms over his chest and allowed himself a tiny pout.
“You shouldn’t sulk either, sweetheart. It’s Christmas Eve Eve.”
He eyed Michael through a lock of black hair. “Otherwise known as December 23rd.”
“Yes, technically,” Michael said, cheerfully.
He turned to look out at the brown hills and cars speeding past them on the freeway. Just ahead of them, the Las Vegas skyline loomed.
“I still think we should have gone to Northern California to see your family for Christmas. Or stayed home and had our own Christmas, like last year.”
His husband nodded. “Last year was fantastic, I agree. We’ll have a more private celebration for New Year’s. But as part of the human race, Kev, we sometimes have to put our own preferences aside to please others. You said yourself your father hadn’t asked to see you in years.”
Me and my big mouth.
“Well, maybe that was a good thing.” Kevin sighed.
He had been surprised when he’d received first an email and then an actual phone call from his father asking him to come to Vegas for Christmas. Something about making amends for all their lost time. Unfortunately he’d said something about it to Michael and here they were almost to Vegas.
“I saw your face, sweetheart. You wanted to come.” Michael reached over and patted Kevin’s leg. “It’s going to be all right. If we feel uncomfortable, we’ll go home. It’s only five hours or so.”
“And if I changed my mind since then? Can’t we turn around and go back now?”
“Give it a chance. For me, if not your dad.”
Crap, when Michael put it that way, what else could he do? He slunk down in the seat. “Okay.”
Michael glanced at him briefly, smiling. “There’s my beautiful boy.”
“Don’t lay it on too thick,” Kevin said with a snort. And speaking of laying it on, it was time to retouch his lip gloss. He reached into his jeans pocket and took out the cherry colored and flavored gloss. Pulling the visor down to expose the mirror, Kevin layered a generous amount with the sponge applicator.
“Trying to put so much on they won’t kiss you?”
“Kiss me? Oh, babe, trust me, the old man won’t want to kiss me. Don’t you remember him from when we were kids? Not exactly warm and fuzzy.”
Michael shrugged. “People change. And what about this woman he lives with now? Lulu?”
“I don’t even know her. She better not kiss me.”
His husband chuckled. “Well, that leaves all your kisses for me then.”
Kevin’s stomach gurgled sourly as Michael exited the freeway. That meant they were almost there. Great.
When they had finished exiting, instead of continuing down the street, Michael pulled into the driveway of a small strip mall and stopped the car.
“What?” he asked, confused.
Michael grabbed his hands and squeezed. “You’re so pale. Sweetheart, it’s going to be all right. You know I won’t let anything happen to you.”
Kevin bit his lip. “It’s just…everything with my dad has never managed to live up to what I want it to be, you know?”
“I know. And if it truly is horrible, I promise, you just have to say the word and we’ll go home. But you might be really sorry if you don’t at least try.”
“Ok, I’m trying.”
“Yes, you are, and I love you for it.” Michael leaned over and gave him a quick kiss. “Shall we?”
* * *
His father lived in senior apartments off of Tropicana Boulevard. Michael followed the directions Kevin’s dad had given them and pulled into a visitor parking space directly in front apartment B.
Blowing out a breath, Kevin opened the car door and got out. He tried to remind himself he had nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Right.
Michael came around from the other side and grabbed his hand. The pain in his chest loosened a little. Really, he could face anything as long as he had Michael’s love. He even managed a smile, weak though it was.
The door opened as soon as they approached, as though someone had been watching out the tiny living room window, waiting for them. His father stood there.
Kevin hadn’t seen Robert Flaherty for a number of years now. Since his parents’ divorce. Once in a while he’d hear from him or about him, but he hadn’t seen him. So, for a moment, all he could do was stare. More than his mother, Kevin resembled his father. The same eyes, same shape of the nose, same full lips. It was almost like looking into the mirror at one’s future self, he supposed. His father was dressed simply in khaki slacks and a blue buttoned-down shirt. Though his hair was white, it was full, which Kevin hoped meant the same would be for him when he got older.
“Don’t just stand there, boy, give me a hug,” his father said from the doorway.
“What?”
“A hug. For your old man?”
Since those were the last words he expected out of the old guy, Kevin stood rooted to the spot. He might have stood there until New Year’s, but Michael’s hand rested on his shoulder, propelling him forward.
His father enveloped him in a big, squeeze-the-stuffing out of him bear hug. Kevin wondered if his ribs would pop.
“Don’t keep the boy out there on the front doorstep, Bobby, let him inside,” a woman’s voice came from somewhere behind them.
At last his father loosened his death grip on him, and Kevin looked at the woman. She was tall and thin with perfectly coiffed white hair with…pink streaks. She grinned at him.
“Hi, there, darling. You must be Kevin. “
It was on the tip of his tongue to say, oh, no, he wasn’t. But before he could, his father had a grip on his arm and was yanking him toward the woman.
“That’s right. This is my boy. And this is Lulu.”
Lulu got a hold of him and plastered a big wet kiss on his lips. Kevin hoped he managed to keep the grimace off his face. “My real name’s Diane. Lulu was my stage name.”
“Stage name?”
“I was a Las Vegas show girl once upon a time, darling.” She looked past Kevin. “Oh. Oh, my. Aren’t you a looker?”
Kevin looked back at Michael who looked entirely too amused, the bastard. “Yes, that’s Michael, my husband.”
Lulu looked delighted and ushered them all inside the apartment. “So, that makes you Bobby’s son-in-law, doesn’t it?”
Michael smiled. “I suppose it does.”
“Then I’m your mother-in-law.”
“What?” Kevin asked.
She batted her lashes. “Your daddy made an honest woman out of me. That makes me your momma.”
“Er.” Kevin didn’t know really what to say to that. His head was swimming. Lulu was chattering away asking them about drinks and whatnot. Kevin noticed an a big artificial Christmas tree in the middle of the living room heavily decorated and blinking with multi-colored lights.
“That’s a pre-lit tree,” Lulu advised when she saw him studying it. “Got it from QVC.”
“Hmm. Nice.” He saw an ornament with a Santa holding a bingo card, another that was a royal flush hand of cards, and yet another with a slot machine.
“Where’s your luggage?” his father asked expectantly.
“In the car, for when we go to the hotel,” Michael explained.
Lulu and Kevin’s father squealed as one.
“Oh, no, darling, there’s no hotel. You’re staying with us. We’ve set up a room just for you. This is a two bedroom so we can have guests.” Lulu was more animated and bouncy then him, which was saying a lot, Kevin supposed.
She ushered them down a short hall to two bedrooms and a bathroom. “This is your bedroom, boys. Look, I’ve put a Christmas quilt on it.”
And she certainly had. The quilt had a picture of a snowy village and above the village Santa in his sleigh with his reindeer. But what really caught his eye was that on the night stand next to the double bed was a small bottle of lube and a package of condoms.
Ack.
Seeing where his gaze was, Lulu clapped her hands. “See, we thought of everything! There’s no need to go to a hotel.”
Michael chuckled. “Apparently not.”
Kevin elbowed him in the ribs. This was so not funny and they were so not having sex with his dad and Lulu in the bedroom next door.
“Now,” Lulu said, “let’s get your stuff out of your car. Have you finished your shopping? Cause, if you haven’t we can all go over to the mall off the strip. In fact, even if you have finished, you can come with us anyway. Michael, do you mind driving?”
“No, Lulu, that’s fine.”
She smiled brightly at them, and both she and his father looked so damn happy they were there, a little ice chunk melted from Kevin’s heart. Maybe this wouldn’t be the ordeal he thought it would be.
As they made their way back to the living room, Michael and Lulu went out to the car for their stuff, but his dad held him back.
“Son, I just wanted to say, I’m really glad you’re here.” His father’s gaze was downcast. “I…I wasn’t sure you would want to come. That’s why I sent the email note first, but Lulu said I should call and ask you.”
“I’m glad you did, Dad,” Kevin said softly. And he meant it, too.
His father raised his gaze and in the depths of his eyes, so like his own, Kevin saw hope. “Yeah?”
“Yeah. Maybe you and Lulu can come see us next year in California.”
His father nodded. “I’d really like that. I’d like us to spend more time together. I know I should have tried before, but—”
“Don’t worry about the past, Dad,” he interrupted. “Let’s worry about now. Okay?”
His dad swallowed. “Yeah. Thank you, Kevin. It means a lot to me. To both of us to have you and Michael here for Christmas.”
Kevin got choked up and couldn’t respond. He was saved by the arrival of a very noisy and boisterous Lulu and Michael, who, surprisingly…er maybe not…were singing Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer.
Great, now his husband had a pal.
Michael came to him and hugged him. “Everything good, sweetheart?”
Kevin smiled and kissed him with cherry-glossed lips. “Everything’s fantastic.”
“Merry Christmas,” Michael answered.
“And God Bless Us Everyone,” Lulu declared, then laughed. “I just love A Christmas Carol, don’t you? We’ll have to watch that later after shopping.”
And she kept chattering away and no one seemed to mind.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Sunday Eye Candy
Since this is my last Eye Candy until 2011, I'm reposting some of my favorites from the year. Enjoy.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Updates
Updates are going here today since I’ve been posting free holiday stories on normal update days.
I’ve been working on Accidentally His again lately. I hope to have it completed by the middle of January, if not before. I should have another story related to this one but with different heroes later in 2011.
I’d like to turn my attention to Galaxy’s Heart, Sutter’s Bay 3, once Accidentally His is finished. If I can get that story done by the end of February or earlier, that should still give me plenty of time to work on my “Postcards From Paradise” story I volunteered for at AQ. My paradise vacation story will be in Ireland though. That’s paradise to me.
Once that is done, I have to look to my other obligated story, which is a ghost story. Yes, you can hear the enthusiasm, can’t you? Just how do you get a HEA when one of your heroes has been dead for hundreds of years? Beats me, too. But I shall try.
As you can see, this is already taking up the first six months of 2011. Sigh. And there is a story I really want to get to. Ah, well, I’ll get to it and several others before 2011 is finished, I am sure.
Speaking of free stories, Kevin’s latest free story, Viva Las Christmas, will be posted on Monday, December 20th, if it kills me. Might. At this point I am looking at one long part but I may be forced to split it into two. I’ll try not to make it too many parts though.
Once that free story is finished posting, I will be posting a best wishes for the holiday season blog and probably taking the remainder of 2010 off, with the blog returning January 03, 2011 (in time for a contest for my first release, Pulling Apart).
I’ve been working on Accidentally His again lately. I hope to have it completed by the middle of January, if not before. I should have another story related to this one but with different heroes later in 2011.
I’d like to turn my attention to Galaxy’s Heart, Sutter’s Bay 3, once Accidentally His is finished. If I can get that story done by the end of February or earlier, that should still give me plenty of time to work on my “Postcards From Paradise” story I volunteered for at AQ. My paradise vacation story will be in Ireland though. That’s paradise to me.
Once that is done, I have to look to my other obligated story, which is a ghost story. Yes, you can hear the enthusiasm, can’t you? Just how do you get a HEA when one of your heroes has been dead for hundreds of years? Beats me, too. But I shall try.
As you can see, this is already taking up the first six months of 2011. Sigh. And there is a story I really want to get to. Ah, well, I’ll get to it and several others before 2011 is finished, I am sure.
Speaking of free stories, Kevin’s latest free story, Viva Las Christmas, will be posted on Monday, December 20th, if it kills me. Might. At this point I am looking at one long part but I may be forced to split it into two. I’ll try not to make it too many parts though.
Once that free story is finished posting, I will be posting a best wishes for the holiday season blog and probably taking the remainder of 2010 off, with the blog returning January 03, 2011 (in time for a contest for my first release, Pulling Apart).
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Thursday, December 16, 2010
Last Christmas, Part Four, Conclusion
Carter didn’t like the closed expression on A.J.’s face. It seemed pretty clear the man didn’t want to listen to what Carter had to say and had already made up his mind he wouldn’t like it. He wondered if he really was fighting a losing cause and A.J. wouldn’t be willing to give him another chance no matter what he said. There was only one way to know.
Last Christmas Eve had been a magical day.
“Merry Christmas!” A.J. hugged and kissed him when he answered Carter’s knock on his apartment door.
“Mmm, that’s quite the welcome,” Carter said, with a laugh. He pulled A.J. close, his hands cupping the tight, round ass. He'd never known anyone as beautiful as A.J. "You really do take my breath away, baby."
A.J. leaned back and gifted him with one of his adoreable blushes, his violet blue eyes sparkiling with happiness. "Sweet talker."
A.J.’s apartment was decorated to the nines. A big, beautiful fresh Christmas tree took over most of the living room. And on every wall was a fresh pine wreath. Various old word Santas filled the apartment, as well as stockings, and bowls full of brightly wrapped Christmas candy.
A.J., himself, had a rather silly Christmas sweater on liberally sprinkled with reindeer and snowflakes. His smile lit up the room more than any decoration. “I got a little carried away, but I’ve never had anyone come over to my place for Christmas Eve before.”
Carter grabbed his hand and kissed him thoroughly. “The place looks great. And whatever you’re making smells amazing.”
“Parmesan chicken. Um, with twice baked potatoes and a salad. I have Ooey Gooey Pumpkin Cake for dessert. I got the recipe from my friend Shayne.”
“It all sounds wonderful. I can’t wait to take a bite.” He nuzzled A.J.’s neck.
“Hey, if you start that, dinner will be really late.”
He moved to capture A.J.’s lips. “Would that be so terrible?”
“First, I should apologize for Christmas Eve. I should have responded when you told me you loved me. I guess I was thinking you only said it because we were having sex at the time.”
A.J. nodded. “Yeah, that was probably the reason.”
“You tell every guy you’re having sex with that you love them?” He didn't like to think about A.J. with anyone, though that was selfish, and even less A.J. telling other men he loved them.
A.J. shrugged, but didn’t say anything.
Sighing, Carter continued, “I knew afterward you actually meant it, it wasn’t just sex talk. But by then, it was too late. Things were already in motion.”
“Things being dumping me.”
A.J.’s voice was laced with such bitterness it gave him pause. It hurt to think he’d been the cause of such a change in the sweet, bubbly man.
“I didn’t want to break up with you, A.J. I really liked you.”
“You liked me.”
He nodded. “Maybe I even knew then that I loved you. But, things ended up not being quite over with Doug.”
“Where is Doug anyway?”
“I’m coming to that,” Carter said softly. “You have to remember that Doug and I were together for five years prior to our breakup.”
“Yes, I remember.”
“It was my decision to end things when I found out Doug was cheating,” Carter explained. “But you aren’t with someone for five years without having a great deal of love for them, even when the relationship no longer works.”
A.J. didn’t respond, just stared at his hands, clenched together in his lap. He looked so sad and so heartbreakingly beautiful, Carter really did have trouble breathing. But he had to get this out.
Swallowing, Carter said, “On Christmas, Doug came to see me. He’d found out he had stage four lung cancer and only had months to live. We both spent a lot of time crying that day. Though I knew I couldn’t be a romantic partner to him anymore, I couldn’t let him spend his last months alone. And I could have told you about that at the time, but honestly, you’d only been with me a few weeks and it seemed unbelievably selfish of me to ask you to put your life on hold while I cared for Doug.”
“I see,” A.J. whispered.
“At first, I didn’t want to believe him. Doug had always been a bit manipulative. But he showed me the test results and brought me with him to see his oncologist.” For a moment the memories became too much and his eyes stung with tears. “He passed away in June.”
“I’m sorry.”
Carter nodded. “He spent those last months in pain, but I gave him what comfort I could. The guy he’d been cheating with wanted nothing to do with a sick Doug. He left me in charge of his estate and I spent the first couple of months getting his affairs together and settled.”
A.J. still didn’t look at him, but his expression had thawed several degrees. “You should have told me all this then.”
“Maybe. I don’t think it would have made our breakup any easier.”
A.J. gaze rose to his face. “At least I wouldn’t feel like a fool who’d been used.”
Carter moved closer to him and grabbed A.J.’s hands. “I never meant for you to feel that way. I cared so much…I just didn’t know what to do. You made me realize then that great guys still existed, that love could be out there again for me, when I had lost hope. That’s why, even though I’ve spent the last several months telling myself not to bother you, that you probably have found someone far more worthy of you than me, I came to see you.”
“How do you know there isn’t someone else now?”
The thought was a knife in the heart, but Carter made himself ask, “Is there?”
A.J. closed his eyes briefly, shielding his gorgeous blue eyes from Carter’s gaze. When he opened them, his eyes were bright. ”No, Carter, there’s no one.”
He nearly went to his knees, giddy with relief, but reminded himself that didn’t mean A.J. would give him…them another chance. “A.J., I know I have no right to ask you for anything, but I’m going to anyway.”
“Carter—”
“Wait.” Fear of what A.J. planned to say had Carter moving off the couch and kneeling before his former lover. He ignored the twinging protest in his knee. “Please, won’t you let me in again? I want to erase those memories of last Christmas. I want just the two of us to be together this Christmas. I want to give you the best holiday you’ve ever known. I just need to prove to you that you can rely on me.”
“I…I need some time, Carter. For the last year I’ve practically hated you—
Carter winced.
--and now well, I guess I can understand what happened with Doug and maybe even why you didn’t tell me, though I wish you had.”
“I know.”
“So, I have to think about this, Carter, I’m sorry. I can’t tell you right now whether I’m willing to try again.”
Obviously not the answer he’d hoped for, but Carter knew he had to accept it. Swallowing the hard lump in his throat, he nodded and sat back on his heels, willing his knee not to give way when he rose up and humiliate him further. He managed to stand though his leg wavered a second.
A.J. stood, too, and to Carter’s disappointment he headed toward the garage. He was leaving. Something told Carter if he took A.J. back to the mall where his car was he’d never see A.J. again. His former lover wouldn’t give him another chance.
Carter made himself follow after A.J., opening his mouth to at least suggest he stay for dinner as planned or if not that, they’d go to a restaurant after all, and then he remembered something he’d put in his pocket earlier that day. He hadn’t really known why, but now it seemed quite fortuitous. He snagged the little item out of his pocket and held it above his head.
A.J. stopped at the closed door and turned around. “I—”
His gaze caught sight of the mistletoe Carter held in his hand perched carefully above them. A.J.’s tongue came out to run along his bottom lip.
An invitation.
Carter leaned in and covered A.J.’s mouth with his, the kiss gentle at first, but soon he crushed A.J.’s soft, pliable lips under his, plundering inside with his tongue. A.J. moaned and his arms came around Carter’s neck and to him, it seemed as though A.J. had surrendered. He certainly hoped so.
Eventually they had to come up for air and it was A.J. who gently pulled away. His eyes were glazed with desire and his already full lips were pouty and swollen.
“You don’t play fair,” A.J. whispered, but there was no censure in his tone.
“No. I won’t. I want you in my life too badly not to be direct.”
A small smile curved A.J.’s lips. “I…guess we can try again.”
“You guess? You need another one of these.”
Carter kissed A.J. again, long, sweet, and thoroughly, until both of them were breathless and quite aroused.
A.J. sighed and leaned against him. “Yes, we can try again. I want to spend this Christmas with you, Carter.”
Closing his eyes in relief, he held A.J. tight. “Thank you. You’ve made this the merriest damn Christmas I’ve ever had.”
A.J. laughed and pulled back enough for Carter to see the sparkle in his blue eyes. “Do you think dinner can wait just a little longer?”
“If I have you in my arms, it can wait forever.”
“Not forever, Carter. We’d die of starvation.”
Carter chuckled, feeling so ridiculously happy he feared he was only dreaming. He tossed the mistletoe to the floor and his lips hovering near A.J.’s, he said, “Merry Christmas, baby.”
“Mmmerry Christmas.”
Last Christmas Eve had been a magical day.
“Merry Christmas!” A.J. hugged and kissed him when he answered Carter’s knock on his apartment door.
“Mmm, that’s quite the welcome,” Carter said, with a laugh. He pulled A.J. close, his hands cupping the tight, round ass. He'd never known anyone as beautiful as A.J. "You really do take my breath away, baby."
A.J. leaned back and gifted him with one of his adoreable blushes, his violet blue eyes sparkiling with happiness. "Sweet talker."
A.J.’s apartment was decorated to the nines. A big, beautiful fresh Christmas tree took over most of the living room. And on every wall was a fresh pine wreath. Various old word Santas filled the apartment, as well as stockings, and bowls full of brightly wrapped Christmas candy.
A.J., himself, had a rather silly Christmas sweater on liberally sprinkled with reindeer and snowflakes. His smile lit up the room more than any decoration. “I got a little carried away, but I’ve never had anyone come over to my place for Christmas Eve before.”
Carter grabbed his hand and kissed him thoroughly. “The place looks great. And whatever you’re making smells amazing.”
“Parmesan chicken. Um, with twice baked potatoes and a salad. I have Ooey Gooey Pumpkin Cake for dessert. I got the recipe from my friend Shayne.”
“It all sounds wonderful. I can’t wait to take a bite.” He nuzzled A.J.’s neck.
“Hey, if you start that, dinner will be really late.”
He moved to capture A.J.’s lips. “Would that be so terrible?”
“First, I should apologize for Christmas Eve. I should have responded when you told me you loved me. I guess I was thinking you only said it because we were having sex at the time.”
A.J. nodded. “Yeah, that was probably the reason.”
“You tell every guy you’re having sex with that you love them?” He didn't like to think about A.J. with anyone, though that was selfish, and even less A.J. telling other men he loved them.
A.J. shrugged, but didn’t say anything.
Sighing, Carter continued, “I knew afterward you actually meant it, it wasn’t just sex talk. But by then, it was too late. Things were already in motion.”
“Things being dumping me.”
A.J.’s voice was laced with such bitterness it gave him pause. It hurt to think he’d been the cause of such a change in the sweet, bubbly man.
“I didn’t want to break up with you, A.J. I really liked you.”
“You liked me.”
He nodded. “Maybe I even knew then that I loved you. But, things ended up not being quite over with Doug.”
“Where is Doug anyway?”
“I’m coming to that,” Carter said softly. “You have to remember that Doug and I were together for five years prior to our breakup.”
“Yes, I remember.”
“It was my decision to end things when I found out Doug was cheating,” Carter explained. “But you aren’t with someone for five years without having a great deal of love for them, even when the relationship no longer works.”
A.J. didn’t respond, just stared at his hands, clenched together in his lap. He looked so sad and so heartbreakingly beautiful, Carter really did have trouble breathing. But he had to get this out.
Swallowing, Carter said, “On Christmas, Doug came to see me. He’d found out he had stage four lung cancer and only had months to live. We both spent a lot of time crying that day. Though I knew I couldn’t be a romantic partner to him anymore, I couldn’t let him spend his last months alone. And I could have told you about that at the time, but honestly, you’d only been with me a few weeks and it seemed unbelievably selfish of me to ask you to put your life on hold while I cared for Doug.”
“I see,” A.J. whispered.
“At first, I didn’t want to believe him. Doug had always been a bit manipulative. But he showed me the test results and brought me with him to see his oncologist.” For a moment the memories became too much and his eyes stung with tears. “He passed away in June.”
“I’m sorry.”
Carter nodded. “He spent those last months in pain, but I gave him what comfort I could. The guy he’d been cheating with wanted nothing to do with a sick Doug. He left me in charge of his estate and I spent the first couple of months getting his affairs together and settled.”
A.J. still didn’t look at him, but his expression had thawed several degrees. “You should have told me all this then.”
“Maybe. I don’t think it would have made our breakup any easier.”
A.J. gaze rose to his face. “At least I wouldn’t feel like a fool who’d been used.”
Carter moved closer to him and grabbed A.J.’s hands. “I never meant for you to feel that way. I cared so much…I just didn’t know what to do. You made me realize then that great guys still existed, that love could be out there again for me, when I had lost hope. That’s why, even though I’ve spent the last several months telling myself not to bother you, that you probably have found someone far more worthy of you than me, I came to see you.”
“How do you know there isn’t someone else now?”
The thought was a knife in the heart, but Carter made himself ask, “Is there?”
A.J. closed his eyes briefly, shielding his gorgeous blue eyes from Carter’s gaze. When he opened them, his eyes were bright. ”No, Carter, there’s no one.”
He nearly went to his knees, giddy with relief, but reminded himself that didn’t mean A.J. would give him…them another chance. “A.J., I know I have no right to ask you for anything, but I’m going to anyway.”
“Carter—”
“Wait.” Fear of what A.J. planned to say had Carter moving off the couch and kneeling before his former lover. He ignored the twinging protest in his knee. “Please, won’t you let me in again? I want to erase those memories of last Christmas. I want just the two of us to be together this Christmas. I want to give you the best holiday you’ve ever known. I just need to prove to you that you can rely on me.”
“I…I need some time, Carter. For the last year I’ve practically hated you—
Carter winced.
--and now well, I guess I can understand what happened with Doug and maybe even why you didn’t tell me, though I wish you had.”
“I know.”
“So, I have to think about this, Carter, I’m sorry. I can’t tell you right now whether I’m willing to try again.”
Obviously not the answer he’d hoped for, but Carter knew he had to accept it. Swallowing the hard lump in his throat, he nodded and sat back on his heels, willing his knee not to give way when he rose up and humiliate him further. He managed to stand though his leg wavered a second.
A.J. stood, too, and to Carter’s disappointment he headed toward the garage. He was leaving. Something told Carter if he took A.J. back to the mall where his car was he’d never see A.J. again. His former lover wouldn’t give him another chance.
Carter made himself follow after A.J., opening his mouth to at least suggest he stay for dinner as planned or if not that, they’d go to a restaurant after all, and then he remembered something he’d put in his pocket earlier that day. He hadn’t really known why, but now it seemed quite fortuitous. He snagged the little item out of his pocket and held it above his head.
A.J. stopped at the closed door and turned around. “I—”
His gaze caught sight of the mistletoe Carter held in his hand perched carefully above them. A.J.’s tongue came out to run along his bottom lip.
An invitation.
Carter leaned in and covered A.J.’s mouth with his, the kiss gentle at first, but soon he crushed A.J.’s soft, pliable lips under his, plundering inside with his tongue. A.J. moaned and his arms came around Carter’s neck and to him, it seemed as though A.J. had surrendered. He certainly hoped so.
Eventually they had to come up for air and it was A.J. who gently pulled away. His eyes were glazed with desire and his already full lips were pouty and swollen.
“You don’t play fair,” A.J. whispered, but there was no censure in his tone.
“No. I won’t. I want you in my life too badly not to be direct.”
A small smile curved A.J.’s lips. “I…guess we can try again.”
“You guess? You need another one of these.”
Carter kissed A.J. again, long, sweet, and thoroughly, until both of them were breathless and quite aroused.
A.J. sighed and leaned against him. “Yes, we can try again. I want to spend this Christmas with you, Carter.”
Closing his eyes in relief, he held A.J. tight. “Thank you. You’ve made this the merriest damn Christmas I’ve ever had.”
A.J. laughed and pulled back enough for Carter to see the sparkle in his blue eyes. “Do you think dinner can wait just a little longer?”
“If I have you in my arms, it can wait forever.”
“Not forever, Carter. We’d die of starvation.”
Carter chuckled, feeling so ridiculously happy he feared he was only dreaming. He tossed the mistletoe to the floor and his lips hovering near A.J.’s, he said, “Merry Christmas, baby.”
“Mmmerry Christmas.”
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Wednesday Musings
No they are not the inspiration for The Naughty Ones, lol, but they are my cute little decorations:
As we struggle with shopping lists and invitations, compounded by December's bad weather, it is good to be reminded that there are people in our lives who are worth this aggravation, and people to whom we are worth the same.
-- Donald E. Westlake
Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love.
-- Hamilton Wright Mabie
Christmas gift suggestions: To your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yourself, respect.
-- Oren Arnold
Christmas is not a time nor a season, but a state of mind. To cherish peace and goodwill, to be plenteous in mercy, is to have the real spirit of Christmas.
-- Calvin Coolidge
Our hearts grow tender with childhood memories and love of kindred, and we are better throughout the year for having, in spirit, become a child again at Christmas-time.
-- Laura Ingalls Wilder
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. Wishing you happiness.
-- Helen Keller
This is my wish for you: peace of mind, prosperity through the year, happiness that multiplies, health for you and yours, fun around every corner, energy to chase your dreams, joy to fill your holidays!
-- D.M. Dellinger
As we struggle with shopping lists and invitations, compounded by December's bad weather, it is good to be reminded that there are people in our lives who are worth this aggravation, and people to whom we are worth the same.
-- Donald E. Westlake
Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love.
-- Hamilton Wright Mabie
Christmas gift suggestions: To your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yourself, respect.
-- Oren Arnold
Christmas is not a time nor a season, but a state of mind. To cherish peace and goodwill, to be plenteous in mercy, is to have the real spirit of Christmas.
-- Calvin Coolidge
Our hearts grow tender with childhood memories and love of kindred, and we are better throughout the year for having, in spirit, become a child again at Christmas-time.
-- Laura Ingalls Wilder
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. Wishing you happiness.
-- Helen Keller
This is my wish for you: peace of mind, prosperity through the year, happiness that multiplies, health for you and yours, fun around every corner, energy to chase your dreams, joy to fill your holidays!
-- D.M. Dellinger
Monday, December 13, 2010
Last Christmas, Part Three
A.J. blinked, frozen in place. How did he even respond to that?
“No.”
Some people had balls of steel and apparently Carter Thorne happened to be one of them.
“Please. Have dinner with me. Just to talk.”
He could say one thing for the man, Carter was still gorgeous. Well, it had been a year, not an eternity, but still it irritated him. Most natural blond men that he’d ever met had thinning hair. Carter had thick luxurious blond waves upon his head. And today he wore no suit but rather jeans, a black shirt, and a leather bomber jacket. Upon his chin was sexy stubble.
Bastard.
“I have nothing to say to you, Carter.”
“All right, but I have something to say to you. I want to explain about last Christmas.”
Against his will, A.J.’s gaze dropped to Carter’s sensuous lips. He remembered their feel on his, their taste. One kiss from the man and A.J.’s defenses would crumble. He backed up a step.
“There’s nothing to explain. We had a fling, it didn’t work out. The end.”
“It was more than a fling, A.J.”
He shook his head. “No.”
“You told me you loved me.”
Having that pointed out was like being kicked in the stomach or maybe the chest. Dropping his gaze away from Carter’s face, he said softly, “You didn’t.”
“I know. I…please. Just have dinner with me. I know you don’t owe me anything, A.J. I deserve your contempt, but I’ll get down on my knees if I have to. I’m begging. Isn’t there just a tiny part of you that wants to know what I have to say?”
There was and A.J. hated himself for it. Loathed.
Carter seemed to sense his hesitation and went in for the kill. “What time do you get off work? I’ll pick you up.”
“Five.” His heart beat so fast he thought his chest would rupture. What the hell was he doing? And what about Carter’s boyfriend. The one he’d dumped A.J. to get back together with.
Carter smiled. “Great, I’ll be here to pick you up.”
“Wait. What about Doug?”
“I’ll explain that later, A.J. It’s complicated and I don’t want to get you in trouble at work. I’ll be back here a little before five. Thank you.”
“Don’t thank me, Carter. I still hate you.”
Carter came back to the jewelry counter twenty minutes before five o’clock. He figured Carter wanted to make sure A.J. didn’t give him the slip.
At five, A.J. said goodbye to his co-worker, Marlene, who had the closing sift. Brian had gone home a couple hours earlier. Carter waited by a mannequin dressed in a sequined black dress.
“Ready?”
“As I’ll ever be,” A.J. said with a grimace. Ever since his agreement, if he’d actually agreed, which he wasn’t sure he had, A.J. had been thinking how this was probably a big mistake. Whatever Carter had to say, he didn’t want to hear it.
They walked out of the mall to the parking structure and A.J. followed Carter down an aisle to the right. He recognized Carter’s blue Honda Civic.
Both of them were silent as Carter started the car and pulled out of the parking lot. After a while though, A.J. couldn’t take it.
“I’m surprised you even remember me.”
Carter glanced briefly at him, frowning. “Why wouldn’t I?”
He shrugged. “It’s been a year.”
The hands on the steering wheel tightened and Carter sighed. “We were involved in a relationship, A.J. I’m not going to forget you.”
“Can you call a few weeks a relationship? I mean we went out right after Thanksgiving and you dumped me at Christmas. Hardly a relationship.”
“What would you call it then?”
“I told you before. A fling. An affair. Whatever. But not a relationship,” A.J. maintained stubbornly.
“But you told me you loved me.”
A.J. looked away, out the car window. “It was a mistake. It was just lust and I got confused.”
Carter didn’t respond to that and A.J. was glad. He just wanted to get this whole thing over with now. Whatever bullshit Carter had to say.
He frowned. “Wait, what restaurant are we going to? This looks like your neighborhood.”
“No restaurant. I’m going to make you dinner at my house.”
“What? I didn’t agree to go to your house.”
Carter shrugged. “You didn’t disagree either.”
“I am now.”
“Too late. We’re here.” Carter drove into his driveway and clicked on a button on his visor to open the garage door. “I’m a cop, A.J. Nothing is going to happen to you. I don’t want to hurt you.”
You already have.
A.J. bit his lip and opened the car door. “What happens when I want to leave?”
“I’ll take you home.” Carter opened the door into the house. “Come on. I want to talk first, then I’ll make dinner.”
“I won’t want to stay for dinner after we talk.”
“We’ll see.”
It seemed pointless to argue about it, but A.J. was certain he wouldn’t be sticking around.
Nothing had changed in Carter’s house that he could see. It was still almost sterile in its cleanliness with distinctive masculine touches. The living room had a black leather couch and matching chair. He chose the couch and wasn’t too happy when Carter chose to sit right next to him.
A.J. scooted over to out more distance between them. “All right, Carter, you may as well get this over with.”
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Sunday, December 12, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
The Naughty Ones Winner - Kaytee
I used the List Randomizer
There were 11 items in your list. Here they are in random order:
Kaytee
Zach
Nikyta
Arzu
Lily
Sidda
Maggie
Rachel
Drew
Jason
Chris
Kaytee, please email me your email address. I only have pdf so I hope that is okay.
There were 11 items in your list. Here they are in random order:
Kaytee
Zach
Nikyta
Arzu
Lily
Sidda
Maggie
Rachel
Drew
Jason
Chris
Kaytee, please email me your email address. I only have pdf so I hope that is okay.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Last Christmas, Part Two
Carter leaned his forehead against the closed door.
This was going to be more difficult than he imagined, and he’d imagined it would be hard to get past A.J.’s defenses.
Obviously, A.J. had been tipped off to his presence in the store. Likely by the other guy working behind the jewelry counter. Brian or Ryan or something.
Still the man had to come out and back onto the floor sometime and Carter planned on waiting. He had little better to do since a recent knee injury had him disabled from his job as a police detective with the Los Angeles Police Department. Temporarily disabled, he hoped.
In the meantime, Carted figured it wouldn’t hurt to browse the store. He still had Christmas gifts left on his list to buy. For himself he only wanted one present.
A.J.
If only he could make A.J. see that what happened last Christmas was a mistake and Carter had no intention of ever repeating it. If A.J. gave him a chance.
Stepping away from the closed door, Carter glanced at the department closest. He didn’t want to get too far away and miss A.J. leave. Had it been a mistake to wait this long? Maybe, but he thought the timing made sense. It did to him, anyway.
Carter had watched A.J. helping customers for much of the morning, trying to stay out of sight. No, he hadn’t turned into a creepy stalker or anything, he just wanted to work up the nerve to approach his former lover. And he wanted the chance to take in A.J.’s pure masculine beauty. It’s what had drawn him to the man in the first place, last Christmas time.
“You didn’t have to take me here,” A.J. said, looking around the dark, romantic steak house. “I would have been fine with Denny’s for dinner.”
Carter laughed. “Well, I wouldn’t. Besides, I’m trying to impress you. Is it working?”
A.J.’s blue eyes sparkled mischievously. “Hmm, I don’t know. Ask me after a glass of wine.”
“Oh, great, you have to be drunk to find me charming. Ouch, that hurts.” Carter touched his heart.
A.J. grinned, showing off his perfect smile. “I’m only kidding. I find you charming and I am impressed. So far the evening’s been great.”
He couldn’t help staring, because though it might be cliché it was also true. A.J. was breath taking. He had rich mahogany hair and a lock of it tended to hang over his right eye begging to be pushed out of the way. It was hard for Carter to keep from leaning over and wrapping the silky softness around his finger. Besides those violet blue eyes, the like he’d only ever seen in pictures of Elizabeth Taylor, A.J. had dimples on either side of his pouty lips.
“Something wrong?” A.J. asked.
“No, I just…I like looking at you.”
That brought out a rich, throaty laugh that curled Carter’s toes. “You lay it on thick.”
“Probably, but it’s an honest answer anyway.”
“Thank you. I can’t say I’ve ever been on a date with a cop.”
Carter smiled. “Me either.”
A.J. laughed again and he found he wanted to find a hundred things to say that would amuse A.J. just so he could hear that laugh.
Carter picked up a blender in the house wares section and read the box. He wasn’t sure he knew anyone on his Christmas list who wanted a blender, but it was something to do while he waited.
His cell phone buzzed in pocket of his jeans. Who the hell? He took it out and saw his partner from the LAPD’s picture. He pressed accept call.
“What’s up, Bill?”
Bill Lockley had been Carter’s partner since he made detective three years earlier. “Just checking up to see how you feel.”
“Not bad. Still a bit stiff. Going back to the worker’s comp doc next Monday.”
“If he suggests surgery tell him you want a second opinion.”
Carter winced. “Surgery? I don’t think I need anything that drastic.” He reached down and rubbed it. That tiny bit of hurrying just to keep up with A.J. made the damn knee throb.
“What are you doing?”
“I’m on a stakeout.”
“What? How can you be on a stakeout?”
He sighed. “It’s not a police stakeout, obviously. I’m at A.J.’s store.”
“Oh, my God. You’re after that kid again?”
“He’s like twenty-five, not exactly a kid.”
“You’re thirty-seven.”
“Shut up. Anyway, you know I still have feelings for him.”
“Right,” Bill said. “But considering the way things ended between you, I doubt he wants anything to do with you.”
Carter figured Bill was right given that A.J. had run from him like he was an axe murderer. “I just want to explain what happened.” A.J. loved him once. Or said he did, anyway. On that most perfect Christmas Eve last year.
Bill snorted. “You expecting some sort of Christmas miracle?’
“Well, it could happen.”
“This isn’t the Hallmark Channel, Carter. Good luck, you’re going to need it.”
“Thanks, buddy, for your support.” Carter rolled his eyes and pressed end call.
When twenty-six minutes had passed since A.J. disappeared behind the door, the door opened slowly. Carter knew by the blatant hesitation in the person behind the door, it had to be A.J. He resisted the urge to pounce right way. If he acted too quickly, A.J. might bolt back inside and call the store security to have his stalker removed from the premises.
A.J. stepped out onto the floor and looked around. Carter ducked behind a display of juicers. Other than his dark hair being just a smidge longer, A.J. looked as perfect as he had last Christmas.
The younger man seemed satisfied with his look around and he walked away from the break room and down the aisle. Carter decided to let A.J. return to the jewelry counter before he approached this time. He only hoped the man wouldn’t make another break for it, because with his injured knee he could never keep up with him.
Five minutes later, Carter walked up to A.J.’s jewelry counter. He had no customers.
“Hi, A.J.” Carter attempted a friendly smile. “Can we talk?”
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Wednesday Musings
Will you love me in December as you do in May,
Will you love me in the good old fashioned way?
When my hair has all turned gray,
Will you kiss me then and say,
That you love me in December as you do in May?
-James Walker
How did it get so late so soon? Its night before its afternoon. December is here before its June. My goodness how the time has flewn. How did it get so late so soon?
-Dr. Seuss
How like a winter hath my absence been. From thee, the pleasure of the fleeting year! What freezings have I felt, what dark days seen, What old December's bareness everywhere!
-William Shakespeare
A Merry Christmas this December - To a lot of folks I don't remember
-Anonymous Toast
Shall we liken Christmas to the web in a loom? There are many weavers, who work into the pattern the experience of their lives. When one generation goes, another comes to take up the weft where it has been dropped. The pattern changes as the mind changes, yet never begins quite anew. At first, we are not sure that we discern the pattern, but at last we see that, unknown to the weavers themselves, something has taken shape before our eyes, and that they have made something very beautiful, something which compels our understanding.
- Earl W. Count, 4,000 Years of Christmas
I heard a bird sing
In the dark of December
A magical thing
And sweet to remember.
'We are nearer to Spring
Than we were in September,'
I heard a bird sing
In the dark of December.
- Oliver Herford
Will you love me in the good old fashioned way?
When my hair has all turned gray,
Will you kiss me then and say,
That you love me in December as you do in May?
-James Walker
How did it get so late so soon? Its night before its afternoon. December is here before its June. My goodness how the time has flewn. How did it get so late so soon?
-Dr. Seuss
How like a winter hath my absence been. From thee, the pleasure of the fleeting year! What freezings have I felt, what dark days seen, What old December's bareness everywhere!
-William Shakespeare
A Merry Christmas this December - To a lot of folks I don't remember
-Anonymous Toast
Shall we liken Christmas to the web in a loom? There are many weavers, who work into the pattern the experience of their lives. When one generation goes, another comes to take up the weft where it has been dropped. The pattern changes as the mind changes, yet never begins quite anew. At first, we are not sure that we discern the pattern, but at last we see that, unknown to the weavers themselves, something has taken shape before our eyes, and that they have made something very beautiful, something which compels our understanding.
- Earl W. Count, 4,000 Years of Christmas
I heard a bird sing
In the dark of December
A magical thing
And sweet to remember.
'We are nearer to Spring
Than we were in September,'
I heard a bird sing
In the dark of December.
- Oliver Herford
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Contests
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3) Double your chances by entering an additional contest through Chris's Stumbling Over Chaos site:
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Monday, December 6, 2010
Last Christmas, Part One
Andrew John Porter, A.J. to everyone, bent down to unlock the jewelry display case holding the diamond jewelry for the tall, thin blond woman with the elegant chignon.
“A.J.,” his co-worker, Brian, whispered urgently from a couple display cases down.
“In a minute, with a customer,” A.J. said under his breath. He peered up from the display case and gave the woman his best smile. “This one?”
“The one next to that, thank you.”
A.J. closed his hand around the box of one carat diamond studs and placed them on the counter.
“This is really important,” Brian persisted.
A.J. glanced at Brian and mouthed, “In a minute.”
Overhead the music track played Christmas tunes. Actually the department store had been playing Christmas songs since before Thanksgiving. A.J. thought it might have been shortly after Halloween. Only two weeks remained until Christmas.
“Those earrings are nice, but do you think they are appropriate for a teenage girl?” the woman asked him.
He didn’t have the heart to tell her he had no clue what a teenage girl would like. He hadn’t ever even dated one when he was a teenager having always known he preferred guys. He was tempted to call Brian over to get his opinion since his friend and co-worker was straight and engaged, but well, he could manage to at least to pretend he had a clue.
“These are gorgeous, but perhaps a little too sophisticated for a younger girl,” A.J. said, placing the earrings back in the case and reaching for another smaller and less expensive pair of diamond studs. “May I suggest these?”
“A.J., you won’t believe who is here,” Brian spoke from behind another display case. He didn’t have a customer since it tended to be slower during the day on weekdays even during the holiday shopping scene.
“Santa Claus?” A.J. smiled at the woman. “What do you think?”
She turned them over and looked at the price, returning his smile. “Oh, I think these are perfect for my niece, A.J.” She fluttered her eyelashes at him.
“Shall I wrap them for you?”
“Oh, you do that?”
He winked. “I do. Red or green bow?”
“Red would be great. Thank you so much.” She handed him her credit card.
A.J. smiled. “Be right back.”
He stepped over to where they kept the wrapping paper. Brian, short with thinning brown hair, stood next to the drawer with the wrapping supplies.
“What are you doing?” he asked A.J.
“Making a sale.”
“You’re flirting with that woman. What’s the point of that?”
A.J. shrugged. “It helps make a sale. I’ve found most women respond to me.”
“Even though you aren’t remotely interested in them.” Brian shook his head. “It’s so unfair. They don’t look at me twice.”
“You’re engaged anyway. What did you want?”
Brian’s eyes widened. “Oh, yeah. Guess who is in the store?”
“The president.”
“Funny. Way worse for you.” Brian glanced around as though expecting someone to be listening to them. “Carter Thorne.”
A.J.’s turned cold, his stomach twisting. For a minute his head spun with the overwhelming memories.
Last Christmas…
“Wow, I guess I made a mistake coming here on Black Friday,” a tall suited drop dead gorgeous blond man said, leaning over A.J.’s jewelry counter.
A.J., who’d been running from one end of the counter to the other, stopped and stared at the god. “Um, yeah, it’s our busiest day.”
The man sighed. “I guess I have to wait through all these people to talk to you, huh?”
“Talk to me? You want to buy something?”
He grinned. “Just dinner for you. I’ve been watching you all morning. And I know that sounds kind of creepy, but it’s just you’re the most gorgeous guy I’ve seen in a long time. I’m praying you’re gay.”
“Well, yeah, I am.”
“Great, what are you doing after work? Carter Thorne, by the way.”
“A.J. Porter, and it’s Black Friday, I’m not ever going to be done today.” He laughed.
“Tomorrow night then?”
A.J. decided he’d have to be an idiot not to accept a date with this guy. “Sure.”
“A.J.?” Brian was waving his hand in front of A.J.’s face.
He shook his head. “Sorry, got lost in thought.” He took the price off the earrings and placed metallic green paper over the box and included the diamond certificate.
“Thinking about Carter Thorne?”
A.J. grimaced. “He was the worst mistake I ever made.”
“Why exactly did you break up?”
“Basically I had a brief and disastrous affair with an asshole. Carter had just broken up with his boyfriend and used me as his rebound I guess.” And A.J., thinking there was so much more between them, had given Carter his heart. He taped the wrapping paper on the package.
“Ouch,” Brian said, giving him a sympathetic look.
“Thanks for the warning. I’ll be sure to avoid him.” A.J. finished the bow on the package and quickly rang up the purchase. “I’m going to take my break now so hopefully he’ll have left the store by the time I’m done.”
He returned to the woman with her package. “Here you are, Mrs. Duncan.”
“Oh, it’s lovely. Thank you so much.”
“Have a good day.” A.J. waited for her to step away from his counter and then turning on his heels, he went through the partition in the jewelry counter and slipped into the aisle. Glancing to his left to watch for signs of Carter, he turned right and headed for the employee break room.
“A.J., wait!”
Ah, fuck, he recognized Carter’s voice calling him. He quickened his pace and rounded another corner and hurried down another aisle, hoping a customer wouldn’t stop him to ask directions. He could see the break room door, but he could also hear Carter pursuing him.
He could barely wrap his mind around what Carter could possibly want from him after the way things ended last Christmas. Hoping management was no where around, A.J. sprinted down an aisle and wrenched the door that said Employees Only open and closed it in Carter Thorne’s face.
Look for Part 2, on Thursday, December 09, 2010
“A.J.,” his co-worker, Brian, whispered urgently from a couple display cases down.
“In a minute, with a customer,” A.J. said under his breath. He peered up from the display case and gave the woman his best smile. “This one?”
“The one next to that, thank you.”
A.J. closed his hand around the box of one carat diamond studs and placed them on the counter.
“This is really important,” Brian persisted.
A.J. glanced at Brian and mouthed, “In a minute.”
Overhead the music track played Christmas tunes. Actually the department store had been playing Christmas songs since before Thanksgiving. A.J. thought it might have been shortly after Halloween. Only two weeks remained until Christmas.
“Those earrings are nice, but do you think they are appropriate for a teenage girl?” the woman asked him.
He didn’t have the heart to tell her he had no clue what a teenage girl would like. He hadn’t ever even dated one when he was a teenager having always known he preferred guys. He was tempted to call Brian over to get his opinion since his friend and co-worker was straight and engaged, but well, he could manage to at least to pretend he had a clue.
“These are gorgeous, but perhaps a little too sophisticated for a younger girl,” A.J. said, placing the earrings back in the case and reaching for another smaller and less expensive pair of diamond studs. “May I suggest these?”
“A.J., you won’t believe who is here,” Brian spoke from behind another display case. He didn’t have a customer since it tended to be slower during the day on weekdays even during the holiday shopping scene.
“Santa Claus?” A.J. smiled at the woman. “What do you think?”
She turned them over and looked at the price, returning his smile. “Oh, I think these are perfect for my niece, A.J.” She fluttered her eyelashes at him.
“Shall I wrap them for you?”
“Oh, you do that?”
He winked. “I do. Red or green bow?”
“Red would be great. Thank you so much.” She handed him her credit card.
A.J. smiled. “Be right back.”
He stepped over to where they kept the wrapping paper. Brian, short with thinning brown hair, stood next to the drawer with the wrapping supplies.
“What are you doing?” he asked A.J.
“Making a sale.”
“You’re flirting with that woman. What’s the point of that?”
A.J. shrugged. “It helps make a sale. I’ve found most women respond to me.”
“Even though you aren’t remotely interested in them.” Brian shook his head. “It’s so unfair. They don’t look at me twice.”
“You’re engaged anyway. What did you want?”
Brian’s eyes widened. “Oh, yeah. Guess who is in the store?”
“The president.”
“Funny. Way worse for you.” Brian glanced around as though expecting someone to be listening to them. “Carter Thorne.”
A.J.’s turned cold, his stomach twisting. For a minute his head spun with the overwhelming memories.
Last Christmas…
“Wow, I guess I made a mistake coming here on Black Friday,” a tall suited drop dead gorgeous blond man said, leaning over A.J.’s jewelry counter.
A.J., who’d been running from one end of the counter to the other, stopped and stared at the god. “Um, yeah, it’s our busiest day.”
The man sighed. “I guess I have to wait through all these people to talk to you, huh?”
“Talk to me? You want to buy something?”
He grinned. “Just dinner for you. I’ve been watching you all morning. And I know that sounds kind of creepy, but it’s just you’re the most gorgeous guy I’ve seen in a long time. I’m praying you’re gay.”
“Well, yeah, I am.”
“Great, what are you doing after work? Carter Thorne, by the way.”
“A.J. Porter, and it’s Black Friday, I’m not ever going to be done today.” He laughed.
“Tomorrow night then?”
A.J. decided he’d have to be an idiot not to accept a date with this guy. “Sure.”
“A.J.?” Brian was waving his hand in front of A.J.’s face.
He shook his head. “Sorry, got lost in thought.” He took the price off the earrings and placed metallic green paper over the box and included the diamond certificate.
“Thinking about Carter Thorne?”
A.J. grimaced. “He was the worst mistake I ever made.”
“Why exactly did you break up?”
“Basically I had a brief and disastrous affair with an asshole. Carter had just broken up with his boyfriend and used me as his rebound I guess.” And A.J., thinking there was so much more between them, had given Carter his heart. He taped the wrapping paper on the package.
“Ouch,” Brian said, giving him a sympathetic look.
“Thanks for the warning. I’ll be sure to avoid him.” A.J. finished the bow on the package and quickly rang up the purchase. “I’m going to take my break now so hopefully he’ll have left the store by the time I’m done.”
He returned to the woman with her package. “Here you are, Mrs. Duncan.”
“Oh, it’s lovely. Thank you so much.”
“Have a good day.” A.J. waited for her to step away from his counter and then turning on his heels, he went through the partition in the jewelry counter and slipped into the aisle. Glancing to his left to watch for signs of Carter, he turned right and headed for the employee break room.
“A.J., wait!”
Ah, fuck, he recognized Carter’s voice calling him. He quickened his pace and rounded another corner and hurried down another aisle, hoping a customer wouldn’t stop him to ask directions. He could see the break room door, but he could also hear Carter pursuing him.
He could barely wrap his mind around what Carter could possibly want from him after the way things ended last Christmas. Hoping management was no where around, A.J. sprinted down an aisle and wrenched the door that said Employees Only open and closed it in Carter Thorne’s face.
Look for Part 2, on Thursday, December 09, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
The Naughty Ones Contest
The most awesome Chris will be hosting a contest to win The Naughty Ones on Stumbling Over Chaos (love those kitties). That contest starts December 06 and runs until December 13, the day after the release. I wanted to give people a week to enter there and Chris cooly agreed.
But I am feeling in a jolly mood, so I am also going to have a contest here on the blog which starts...now. Double your chances by entering both, lol.
This one goes from now until Friday, December 10, 2010.
The Naughty Ones will be released by Silver Publishing on Sunday, December 12, 2010. To enter, leave a comment.
But I am feeling in a jolly mood, so I am also going to have a contest here on the blog which starts...now. Double your chances by entering both, lol.
This one goes from now until Friday, December 10, 2010.
The Naughty Ones will be released by Silver Publishing on Sunday, December 12, 2010. To enter, leave a comment.
Young Christmas Elf, Christian, is thinking of leaving the North Pole after this Christmas due to his unrequited love for his best friend, Alistair. But before he can make a decision on his future, he finds himself in trouble with the dark-haired sexy, Head Elf, Gabriel. Trouble comes in the form of having to be the Head Elf's assistant for the season, but after a kiss under the mistletoe, their relationship takes a naughty turn and by Christmas, Christian only has eyes and love for Gabriel. Will the Head Elf return his feelings?
Thursday, December 2, 2010
November Best Sellers from Amber Quill
November 2010
Best Sellers!
1. Tensaw Blues
- T. D. McKinney & Terry Wylis
(Gay / Contemporary)
2. What You Don't Confess
- KC Kendricks
(Gay / Contemporary)
3. Once Upon A Secret
- Christiane France
(Gay / Contemporary)
4. (Boys Of The Zodiac)
Scorpio: The Heart To Help
- Jamie Craig
(Gay / Contemporary)
5. Runes Of Revelation
- Deirdre O'Dare
(Gay / Dark Fantasy)
6. (Boys Of The Zodiac)
Sagittarius: Mr. November
- Pepper Espinoza
(Gay / Contemporary)
7. Out On The Net
- Rick R. Reed
(Gay / Contemporary)
8. Manfred's Curse
- Shawn Lane
(Gay / Shapeshifter)
9. Island Heat
- A. J. Llewellyn & D. J. Manly
(Gay / Contemporary)
10. Tough Guy
- Bryl R. Tyne
(Gay / Western)
Manfred and I squeaked in there at #8.
Congrats to my fellow AQ authors who made the list.
Best Sellers!
1. Tensaw Blues
- T. D. McKinney & Terry Wylis
(Gay / Contemporary)
2. What You Don't Confess
- KC Kendricks
(Gay / Contemporary)
3. Once Upon A Secret
- Christiane France
(Gay / Contemporary)
4. (Boys Of The Zodiac)
Scorpio: The Heart To Help
- Jamie Craig
(Gay / Contemporary)
5. Runes Of Revelation
- Deirdre O'Dare
(Gay / Dark Fantasy)
6. (Boys Of The Zodiac)
Sagittarius: Mr. November
- Pepper Espinoza
(Gay / Contemporary)
7. Out On The Net
- Rick R. Reed
(Gay / Contemporary)
8. Manfred's Curse
- Shawn Lane
(Gay / Shapeshifter)
9. Island Heat
- A. J. Llewellyn & D. J. Manly
(Gay / Contemporary)
10. Tough Guy
- Bryl R. Tyne
(Gay / Western)
Manfred and I squeaked in there at #8.
Congrats to my fellow AQ authors who made the list.
Thursday Updates
So, this is December now so I am scheduling when you can expect my free stories. Or at least some of them. lol.
I will post the first installment of Last Christmas on Monday, December 6, 2010. At this point I am still working on the story so I am not sure how many installments it will be. I'll probably be posting the story on Mondays and Thursdays so be sure to stop in for those days. This is a brand new couple I have never written before so you won't have to read anything prior to them to read this story. The names are A.J. Porter and Carter Thorne.
I'm planning on posting Kevin's little Christmas story the week of December 20, 2010 so you Kevin groupies can look forward to that.
I was reviewing my releases for 2010 and I managed 10 releases for the year (including The Naughty Ones, releasing on December 12, 2010). Should be interesting to see how many I can manage for 2011. I've already managed to schedule two, one in January and one in February. This is ahead of 2010 since my first release wasn't until March (and yes this did make me breakout in hives).
Oh and the release date for Pulling Apart has moved up two weeks to January 09, 2011.
Also, Chris @ Stumbling Over Chaos will be hosting a contest for me for The Naughty Ones, beginning on December 06th, I believe.
Anyway, I am also on the lookout for pictures of hot guys that look Christmasy or Holidayish. So, if anyone knows of some or has seen some, drop me an email at authorshawnlane@gmail.com.
I will post the first installment of Last Christmas on Monday, December 6, 2010. At this point I am still working on the story so I am not sure how many installments it will be. I'll probably be posting the story on Mondays and Thursdays so be sure to stop in for those days. This is a brand new couple I have never written before so you won't have to read anything prior to them to read this story. The names are A.J. Porter and Carter Thorne.
I'm planning on posting Kevin's little Christmas story the week of December 20, 2010 so you Kevin groupies can look forward to that.
I was reviewing my releases for 2010 and I managed 10 releases for the year (including The Naughty Ones, releasing on December 12, 2010). Should be interesting to see how many I can manage for 2011. I've already managed to schedule two, one in January and one in February. This is ahead of 2010 since my first release wasn't until March (and yes this did make me breakout in hives).
Oh and the release date for Pulling Apart has moved up two weeks to January 09, 2011.
Also, Chris @ Stumbling Over Chaos will be hosting a contest for me for The Naughty Ones, beginning on December 06th, I believe.
Anyway, I am also on the lookout for pictures of hot guys that look Christmasy or Holidayish. So, if anyone knows of some or has seen some, drop me an email at authorshawnlane@gmail.com.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Wednesday Musings
I've decided to do my own personal musings this week. For those bored with me, you can check next Wednesday's musings for my usual musings post.
I can hardly believe yesterday was the end of November. I've always liked November. Perhaps it is the whole huge feast toward the end of the month. Maybe it is because it is the longest official holiday time off in the U.S.
But now it is December. December is a mixed month from me. I love Christmas, of course and it's always nice to look forward to whatever a new year will bring.
December is also the month when my dad's birthday was and since he's been gone many years now I can't help but feel the loss even now years later. Growing up I knew Dad's birthday was two weeks from Christmas. It was a special day because I was such a Daddy's girl. Also December was the month of PD's mom's birthday and she passed away just this year, so this will be the first December without her birthday celebration.
Still the holidays make it a wonderful month and I am reminded at this time that life is precious and we should enjoy each holiday season with our hearts full of joy and kindness.
And December has me looking back over the year and thinking about what I have accomplished, what I have yet to accomplish, who I have lost, who is still with me, what I have to be thankful for, and what I can hope for next year when everything is new again.
So Happy December and Happy Holidays
I can hardly believe yesterday was the end of November. I've always liked November. Perhaps it is the whole huge feast toward the end of the month. Maybe it is because it is the longest official holiday time off in the U.S.
But now it is December. December is a mixed month from me. I love Christmas, of course and it's always nice to look forward to whatever a new year will bring.
December is also the month when my dad's birthday was and since he's been gone many years now I can't help but feel the loss even now years later. Growing up I knew Dad's birthday was two weeks from Christmas. It was a special day because I was such a Daddy's girl. Also December was the month of PD's mom's birthday and she passed away just this year, so this will be the first December without her birthday celebration.
Still the holidays make it a wonderful month and I am reminded at this time that life is precious and we should enjoy each holiday season with our hearts full of joy and kindness.
And December has me looking back over the year and thinking about what I have accomplished, what I have yet to accomplish, who I have lost, who is still with me, what I have to be thankful for, and what I can hope for next year when everything is new again.
So Happy December and Happy Holidays
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